Barney

I'm not going to answer your last convoluted comment while I'm in this mood so I won't say things I regret. I'll wait until I think of something else. It's always the same thing year after year of the whole world having to be 10 times nicer to you than you EVER even thought of being to us, and yet it's always "US" that is the problem. We're the jerks and morons and uncaring idiots that have to be held to this gold standard of yours of doing and saying everything exactly as you want it, but of course...YOU DON"T EVER use that gold standard to govern yourself and it only applies to all of us.

I see more clearly than ever before why you have difficulties with everyone on the planet when everything I say or others say goes through that mental filter of yours and you see us as lying------getting angry---saying hurtful things and being mean when many times there is not even a trace of that in the things I wrote or intended to communicate.

What is someone to do when I say this is blue and the other person screams and yells that they heard me say the word "Red" when in fact no such thing was said like that.

I'll try to find another way I guess but this is miserable for me to deal with and it never changes for any length of time and always back to the same old thing and If I tell the "TRUTH" OMG...I'm nothing but a mean spirited jerk when if I can't be truthful then there is no reason for me to say a word.
No one can win here and nothing seems like anything helps either. I do hope something great happens and a miracle occurs but as for it coming through me....I can't see how this is possible anymore.